Gainfully Unemployed (Again)

So, I was hoping that the new 'job' was going to be the ideal situation..,working from home, a few hours a week, data entry type stuff. But honestly, they need a full time bookkeeper. So, while I had a great time with Bill in New Mexico, I called it quits when I could see that it wasn't going to be be what I needed and I wasn't going to be what they needed. It was an amicable parting and I hope they find a crackerjack bookkeeper to help them out because it's a really great company.

Sometimes I wonder why things happen in life (don't we all). I look at situations and try to figure out what the 'lesson' for my life was. I think the job taught me to focus on what I really want, which is writing, not bookkeeping. I got sidetracked a bit while I was in New Mexico and I now realize that I need a lot of focus to make my dreams come true. I have to give as much attention to my new career as I would any other job. In order to accomplish my goals I have to be as dedicated an employee to myself as I would be for anyone else. Important lesson for the 'year of writing dangerously'.

I am also grateful for the strengthening of my relationship with Bill. While I always felt we were great friends before, living and working together for three weeks really taught me about who he is and what he's about and I admire him greatly. Plus he's a great conversationalist, a thoughtful friend and an awesome singer. You are an inspiration Bill, and I thank you. I know that everything will work out as it should for your life but I can't help but selfishly wish an itty, bitty bit that you come back to Vegas.

So I leave the safety net I though this part time job would bring me, a little financial easement for my path. It's going to be rough but then I never thought this choice was going to be easy to begin with. Achieving ones dreams is rarely easy though, I guess. But some of the greatest experiences of m life have been when I just closed my eyes and jumped. So here I go. Wheeeee.

And So It Begins

The "Year of Writing Dangerously" has begun. Yesterday was one of the toughest days of my life when I had to say goodbye to my friends and collegues at the greatest job I ever had. Yes, I bawled like a newborn as I packed up my office to start what I now think of as an 'experiment in terror'. I have moved in with my mother and grandmother (a truly strange episode of the Golden Girls), quit my job and am now a full time writer and filmmaker (currently unemployed). Aughhhhhhh! What was I thinking?!? I had safety, security, medical insurance and a 401(k)! Now I have a Pilot G2 pen, a stack of blank paper, a gazillion ideas in my head that I now have to WRITE DOWN and just about enough in savings that while I won't starve to death I'll probably be existing on a lot of ramen noodles and day old bread. All in the name of 'pursuing my dream'. Okay, I'm scared but determined. I don't want this year to be a mistake so I'm going to hunker down and fulfill my destiny...what that destiny may be has yet to be revealed. Stay tuned dear readers, because the life on the ledge just became a life on a teeny tiny wafer thin ledge. Can she do it?